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I love him but i don't like him

Monday November 20, 2006

 Weekend SUCKED I almost died and he just sat there.
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  Well John got home about 8:30 or so on Friday and same old routine I got off the computer so he could get on. I have really got to get his ass off of this computer, although it keeps him out of my hair. I don't know what to do with him. I wanted to go shopping this weekend as i had mentioned but i couldn't get him to get off the computer. He got off every now and then for a few minutes and i quick got on and did some stuff but he was back to the computer in no time.

Turkey Wave IT IS ALMOST THANKSGIVING AND BY THE WAY HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO YOU ALL!!!.
He can't comprehend that we need to get food in this house and i need to go shopping. He knows that i can't do this by myself because i am not in good health. I cannot go through the whole store and get what i need, i have to wear my oxygen because it is so streneous for me. No i don't want no pitty i am just being logical.

I REALLY NEED TO SAY THAT I REALLY WONDER IF HE CARES IF I LIVE OR DIE. I WOKE UP SATURDAY MORNING AND I COULDN'T BREATH. I HAVE TO WEAR A MASK TO BREATH AND MY OXYGEN IS UP TO 10 LITERS. OK I WOKE UP AND I WAS SAYING " I CAN'T BREATH, HELP ME I CAN'T BREATH" HE WAS ON THE COMPUTER (POKER) AND HE JUST LOOKED AT ME. SO I WAS TRYING TO FIND   OUT WHAT WAS GOING ON WITH MY MACHINE AND IT TOOK ME A GOOD 5 MINUTES, I WAS UNPLUGGING THIS HOSE TO PLUG INTO THAT AND SO  Carving Turkey ON AND I FINALLY FIGURED OUT THAT THERE WAS A HOLE IN MY MAIN TUBBING. SO I GOT MY NEW TUBING OUT AND CONNECTED IT AND I SAT ON MY BED FOR 1/2 HOUR TRYING TO GET MY BREATHING TO 'NORMAL'. HE JUST SAT THERE. HE KEPT PLAYING HIS POKER. I COULD NOT BELIEVE IT. WHAT IS HIS PROBLEM??? I REALLY GOT SCARED. WHEN I TOLD MY KIDS THEY WERE PISSED OFF.

He is losing it or something.  I don't know. YES, i know i need to get the hell out of here but ya know.......as i say "it's easier to stay" I know that is a bad attitude and if i stay here i can't guarentee how long i can prolong my life.Empty Pockets.  I just don't know any more. 

Guess I am going to go for now. 

GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND HAVE A HAPPY THANKSGIVING

Carving Turkey
Love,

Angel

Posted by iamanangel at 3:20 PM - 7 Comments   Add a Comment  
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oops i got a turkey in the wrong spot....LOL  
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by iamanangel (PM , CC ) on Monday November 20, 2006 @ 3:21 PM
I'm sorry to hear that you're not feeling good and that your husband is being insensitive about your situtaion. Computer is very addictive, trust me I know. My fiance is a computer person too and he hates going shopping but I don't nag or get upset if he doesn't want to do anything I don't force him to do it. I tell him that I'd rather have him there but I will not force or yell or do anything that would irritate him because I cannot get him to do things with me especially if I need his help. Although it is very different at your cituation, but don't worry I will pray for your health and for your family.

Have a great thanksgiving and thank you for the comment. 		 
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by Miss (PM , CC ) on Tuesday November 21, 2006 @ 11:58 PM
Thank you for your prayers.. I do love my computer to but i don't really think that it is good reason to just forget about my suroundings(sp) I am so upset with him. But i didn't yell or complain i just went into my room and sat on my bed. My health is not the best and he knows that. I wonder if he isn't just waiting for the time.. just say goodnite baby. OH i'm just feelin' sorry for myself i guess. SORRY! Sometimes i don't understand him. He definetly isn't the man i married 23 years ago. I think he has lost his compassion.
Thanx for the Prayers and I will pray for you too.
angel 		 
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by iamanangel (PM , CC ) on Wednesday November 22, 2006 @ 12:11 AM
sorry he is acting that way towards you must be a bad situation to be in. i hope you stay healthy and on the road to hapiness  
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by Angie (PM , CC ) on Wednesday November 22, 2006 @ 12:13 AM
I will tell you that it is no picnic here. I am trying to find a different situation to be in but with my health and depression it makes it hard..It's so much easier to stay
Thanks for your concern and taking the time to let me know somebody out there cares...

angel 		 
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by iamanangel (PM , CC ) on Wednesday November 22, 2006 @ 12:26 AM
I do care plus I know how it feels to be in a situation but you just can't break away for your own reasons. It makes it harder when outsiders tell you just leave. No one knows exactly how you feel until they are in your shoes as each situation is different. I am glad you use the blog as it is the best way to get your feelings out and stay connected with other people. Hang in there  
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by Angie (PM , CC ) on Wednesday November 22, 2006 @ 9:11 AM
It really feels good to have somebody know that it isn't as easy as it sounds. I give advice sometimes to others and i let them know that the best thing to do for your own health and sane is to remove yourself from the situation. But i also let them know that I know that it isn't that easy. You have to do things that are best for you without harm. I guess a pchsycologist told me it best. When you have had enough you WILL move on. Guess i haven't had enough...No that ain't true either, i just at this time have to stay where i'm at and take the good with the bad. thanx for you input.
love
angel 		 
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by iamanangel (PM , CC ) on Wednesday November 22, 2006 @ 2:07 PM


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